TUESDAY, 12.25.01 i really don't like this day to much to begin with... spending it alone makes it all so much worse... brian is, of course, back in los angeles now... left today... (and very excited, i've learned, to be in some new extravagant hotel in west hollywood)... i watched "a christmas story" three-and-a-half times in a row on tnt... then i watched a horrible movie called scrooged (why??? why???)... i cuddled with my cats max and mookie a little bit (until max got incredibly jealous and started beating up mookie)... took down the christmas tree (a whole five-minute process involving a 20" aluminum tree and a little bag that will get stuffed into the back of the closet until next year)... no one is in town... i'm alone again and whatever... ugh... i must stop this... it's not that bad!!! i choose this, right??? well, there were some highlights this evening... i talked to linzi on the phone for a while which was great!!! chatted online with dan(too)... and i got some work done on this site i'm building... i'm sure tomorrow will be fine... i'm cleaning the grease pit again all night...
MONDAY, 12.24.01 making spirits bright
SUNDAY, 12.23.01 i started that job two days ago... it was fun then during the fabulous afternoon shift... today, i hate it... i did the evening shift last night which had pretty much nothing to do with hot-dogs and everything to do with cleaning up after the shift before me so that they can walk in again the next morning to a brightly sanitized kitchen with which to dirty again so i can clean it... plus, unlike friday (when i worked with a fun bunch of kids), last night i got stuck with the guy that no one (now, including myself) can stand... so they post next weeks schedule and, of course, i'm gonna be working with him all week... ugh... i mean i'm happy that i'm not deep frying frites or washing dishes all day, but, well, i dunno... i just didn't enjoy last night too much... THEN i get home and find one of those lovely dumpsters parked in front of my house (you know the ones that get set up when someone on your street is moving or throwing a bunch of crap away)... WELL i found this amazing bunch of slightly broken statuette lamps, ranging from circa the 50s to the 70s, and some really great lamp shades (the kind i call "hideous fancy") to fix up... i'm gonna be painting and wiring and hot gluing for days and i'm so excited about it... i don't think that brian really understands why this kinda stuff makes me so happy... but oh how it does... i love this sh*t...
THURSDAY, 12.20.01 i've finally swallowed my pride... i know, i know... you ask, "how could this guy have any pride, anyway?" well, perhaps you're right, but i don't know a better way to put it... i've accepted the fact that i can no longer live off of this whole web-and-graphic-design-delusion (did i ever?)... i've taken a part time job at a hot-dog stand... i start tomorrow... shutup!!! i haven't even told you about it yet... it's a gourmet hot-dog stand... complete with beignets and champagne and everything... set up to look like a posh mini-bar... with dance music... and everything... it's being touted as the tiffany of fast food... and everything!!! okay, okay... *shrug* i dunno... the place really is fun... and gods, i need money...
MONDAY, 12.17.01 okay, i can't believe i let this go unsaid for so long, but now that i am completely obsessed with it, i have to recomend the film "amelie" as it is my new current favorite... go see this film and let yourself fall into it... it really is amazing...
SATURDAY, 12.15.01 pie's birthday party, the "demonica chanukah"!!!
TUESDAY, 12.11.01 "if your cat were just a little bit bigger it would kill you and eat you." "here's how your cat would kill you: it would wait for you to make a move, like running for your life, then it would pounce on you and inflict a mortal wound with its sharp teeth and powerful jaws. you would try to get up and run again, this time with blood streaming from your neck, your stomach, wherever. then your precious pet would bat at you several times and knock you down, inflicting more wounds with its massive claws. when you're white with blood loss and screaming for your neighbors or anyone within earshot to call an ambulance, your cat would grab your entire body in its mouth and shake you, perhaps gnawing your body in half. it would begin to eat your viscera while the top half of your body looked on in horror." - from my favorite book:
SUNDAY, 12.09.01 yes i'm home... sorry... as soon as i got back to new york i went out to connecticut for the weekend to stay with some friends there... i get back home tonight and find that yet another machine in my life has broken down... it seems that the usb port on my pooter is no longer working... UGH... soooooo, all of the pictures i took this weekend will stay on my camera and off of my site (sorry kids)... so, with my birthday just a little more than a month away i guess i should add a new camera and a new computer to my wishlist... ha... but seriously, i'm starting to hate having to work with glorified calculators all of the time...
FRIDAY, 12.07.01 FUCK i hate flying by myself sometimes... but here i go... see you on the flipside...
THURSDAY, 12.06.01 okay, well, my stupid camera went capooey (sp?) tonight... didn't get to take the pics i wanted... all was not a bust, though... i ran into a boy named billy that i met at the new york lgbt film festival last year... he looked adorable as ever... oh, and here's an update: brent got braces... they're sooooo cute!!! brian and i had dinner with him and edsel and clement and doug and edsel's mom (i'm sure she is probably still scratching her head in confusion)... so, yes, this was my last night here... *sad* *relieved* *shrug* i did get to spend the day with my adorable new friend linzi from new zealand... he works for a new zealand airline and travels to los angeles quite frequently... i was lucky enough to meet him last week at the abbey during one of his visits and then plan to see him again when he stopped in town today... i've never been to new zealand but now i have an excuse to go... he's building a house on the side of a hill and says that i must be at the housewarming... we've really hit it off... (there i go again, making friends with people i'll never get to see... ugh...)
WEDNESDAY, 12.05.01 so, i've only got a few more days left here in lost angles... it'll be great to get back home... i will miss my new friends, though... and i will really miss brent and edsel... they're taking brian and i out for dinner tomorrow night so i will be sure to get some pictures of everyone...
FRIDAY, 12.28.01 my pet soft shell crab named kani died last night... what's that saying about things having to get worse before they can get better??? *sigh*...
"you are worthless"
by dr. oswald t. pratt and
dr. scott dikkers
fun coming home story... on the subway back to brooklyn a very well endowed homeless woman gets on and immediately starts a strip tease for everyone... boomboom music and all... eventually completely nude... unfortunately the car was filled with disgusted gay boys that just didn't feel it... but instead of getting frustrated with the lack of interest there and leaving, she decides that she'll just take a nap in the middle of the car (directly at my feet, of course)... writhing in self-induced pleasure (i'll leave that part up to your imagination as this is a geocities site and i can't get kicked off) she kept moaning that she was having sex with john f. kennedy... finally word of this got to one of the conductors and the train was stopped... mta workers came in and cleared the train... we stood on the platform and waited while they attempted to get her out of her fantasy and out of the train... of course they failed and had to call police in to get it all taken care of... as they pull her off of the train she points at ME and says, "him! he loves me, too!" some kids were laughing but most people were just mad that their trip had been so delayed... god, i'm home...
